Man, I haven’t written one in a while.
Yeah, that’s it.
I haven’t been on here for a long time, I guess. I honestly doubt anyone’s actually reading this; this is just a blog where I do some of my….venting. I don’t think I’ve been on since Yosemite..? Oh well maybe after that, but it’s a long story. These past few months have been mayhem.
But I’m not here to talk about that stuff. Yes, graduation was wonderful, everyone was beautiful, we all cried, I won some prizes, yeah it was great. Summer has started, I went to VBS and I’m leaving for a Mexico cruise on Saturday, but we’re going to Universal Studios first (though I wanted to go to Disneyland). School starts in August, can’t say I’m not excited, but I’m also kinda worried I won’t get through.
But this is a hard summer for me to deal with. I’m starting to feel that some of my friends are pulling away, forgetting about me. There’s this one friend in particular; he’s not going to the same school as us next year and we’ll all miss him. We all thought we were great friends, but it’s now obvious that he was the one holding our group together. I hate to admit it, but that’s the truth. I’m really scared that we’ll all fall apart next year without him. It scares me, it really does.
I was really hoping to hang out with all my friends this summer, but everything just seemed to have failed. My friends who aren’t overseas apparently don’t think I’m worth inviting to their little pool parties, or rather, to anything. I’m not saying I don’t like the friends that actually do like inviting me, it’s just that I thought we were all one big group; one big family. I thought we were closer than that. I thought we would automatically think of eachother when we mention hanging out, I thought everybody was included. I know I’m guilty too, for hanging out with specific people in our group sometimes, but that’s just for a random movie we don’t want to watch alone and our parents don’t cooperate. So yes, I know how that feels. But still, isn’t a pool party something we should all go to together? Okay, maybe some of our houses are a little farther away, maybe we don’t want to make this all complicated, maybe some people don’t have a ride, yeah. I get it. Those are just excuses. I’m not saying all of us have to go to the actual hang out.
I’m just saying that once in a while, a girl can get lonely and an invitation wouldn’t be so bad, you know? At least she knows they thought of her.
